Air Swell

I think I am way too carefree when it comes to my attitude towards education. Ever since I was young I never really understood or grew to appreciate education, I remember asking my parents why there was a need to study the Chinese Language when I was ten. It turns out that no, it is not because of cultural heritage or cultural connection, it is only to make us appear to be more intelligent so that there is higher probability of landing a better job. Sounds very cynical does it not? Sounds as though it is something worth our effort to correct, by boycotting the educational system which preaches this sardonic system.

But wait a minute.

Everyone around is part of the society, a society that has worked long and hard, hoping that the future generation can provide them with the pensions they may require when they retire. The taxes they have paid were donated to making our lives better, to provide us a better education than they ever had. So no, it is not thoroughly correct when someone else tells you that your fortune is "thanks to your parents", it's thanks to everybody.

So under this well established ground rules, what gives us the sudden right to decide that we should not study under the education system for which we have placed no effort in its establishment? This sudden realisation of my current state as a student brings me back to the question of whether or not I am a good human being. If I am, I should exercise my responsibility of being a student and study hard, or - at the very least - complete my homework on time. I mean, why do I disrespect the teacher by being unable to remember the work assigned by the teacher? Obviously I do not realise the effort put in by the teacher in an attempt to provide us with a better future.

I am taught, day after day, to be appreciative, to be aware of what others have done for me, and to return them the favour. Yet it seems only until now did the information seep through that thick skull of mine.

There is however, one thing I am afraid of.

You see, the last time I tried to really dig my head in and work hard, I began to get more and more easily agitated. I felt as though it was everyone's responsibility to shut up and let me study quietly. I began to neglect those around me, I began to brush them to one side because my plan to achieve my goal does not include them. I got so bogged down that eventually I had to be shaken until I was awaken.
Honestly it is pretty difficult to see what lies ahead of me right now, but at least I know one thing is for sure: I will complete all my homework on time now.

I hope there are no typos, can't really care to check this mesmerising string of text I see before me.

Smile

Even if it is just a façade.

Entry #7

Been awhile since my last post, and that's because it has been awhile since I last went to training.
Looks like I would not be going to this year's nationals.
But it's not about me, it is a team effort, and I wish (The four people whose right to remain anonymous shall be recognised) all the best this year!

Personally?

I believe that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour, and that through him, we can all be saved.

However, I do not believe that possession of a different sexuality is right or wrong,
Because it is impossible to justify either.

But I Know as a fact that whatever your sexuality, you are still human.
And that anyone who supports the denial of basic human rights to their own people,
Whatever their belief,
Should ask themselves what are they doing.

Entry #6 (9/3/2012)

Day 6

Did really horribly today.
First of all, I did not 精力集中 as I should have, which roughly means that I did not focus.
I begun to spray bullets all over the damn place as though they were free and paid no attention to where I was aiming when I pull the trigger.
And what's even worse was that I shot the first one really amazingly slowly. Which is weird, given how lack of focus should result in a IDGAF attitude which should lead to phenomenal speeds. So the only explanation for this would be that I placed my focus on the wrong things. (精力太靠前)
Most of my 远弹 flew towards the left of the card, I am not really sure what that entails but nevermind.
Nothing good to report today.

Good Evening.